Sometimes it's really hard to be vulnerable. It's difficult to share your deepest darkest fears with someone else and allow them to see the cracks in the facade you maintain everyday. We all wear masks to an extent. We put our face on to go and deal with the world, handle our business and keep… Continue reading Facing Fears
I helped to co-facilitate an amazing event this weekend. It’s a yearly get together for centering, validating and healing which has proven to be one of the things I look forward to most despite my grumbling about being outside in cold weather. So many gems were freely given and received during the day-long event but… Continue reading The Body Remembers: Clearing What We Hold
I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me
Sitting in solidarity… In solidarity with people who are crying People who are not joyous at a time when everyone tells you that you should be In solidarity with those who have lost loved ones Those who are alone and empty Those who cannot give thanks in this moment Those who are angry at this… Continue reading Sitting in Solidarity…
There are a lot of things I miss about being pregnant but there are a select few that really stick out and feel ever-present as this year comes to a close. The consistent intense feeling of grief fades a bit over time but the shorter, intermittent bursts of sadness are hella powerful even 6 months… Continue reading 7 Things I Oddly Miss…
When 2017 rolled around, I was focused. I planned to get this dissertation mostly completed, and spend my year gestating my future child. I had come off of surgery at the end of 2016 to remove two sneaky fibroids and a failed IUI (Intra-Uterine Insemination) cycle at the end of the year. I was disappointed… Continue reading LOL @ Your Plans…
Loss is hard. It’s one of the hardest things (if not the hardest) that you’ll ever experience in your life. Different losses hurt differently and different people react differently to loss. I want to say there’s no wrong way to react but… I’d kind of be lying so I’m not going to do that y’all.… Continue reading 7 Things non-bae Does that BAE Never Would
You know that feeling when something’s going on with you and you feel like you then see evidence of it everywhere? Like when you’re going through a breakup but everywhere you turn, you seem to see couples cuddled up, cuffing season is in full swing and everybody-and-their-mother is getting engaged? Yeah, you know what I’m… Continue reading The Value of Trigger Warnings
On March 13, 2017 I found out that I was pregnant. Within a week or so, I found out we were having twins. Around April 15th, we were able to see our little gummy bears moving around in utero looking like Yin and Yang. When we went to our appointment in May, we saw our… Continue reading 11/17/17
I don’t know about y’all but I usually love the holidays. I love the great food, the family time, and the general feeling of happiness that seems to be in the air. This holiday season is a bit different though. We expected to have our infant daughters with us during Thanksgiving dinner and for Christmas.… Continue reading Angel Parent Guide to the Holidays
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