In January of 2017, I was beginning my IVF journey. I hoped it would work. It was my first try, I was scared of all the needles to come, and slowly trying to forget about all the money we just dropped on the hope of creating family. January 2020... three years later, I am a… Continue reading The Journal That Saved Me
photo by @attosfotograficos Recently I attended and tabled at an event targeting mental health awareness. I provided info about my practice, as well as information about pregnancy & infant loss awareness (#PAILAwareness) month, and shared some information about Black Angel Mom. In talks with another person tabling, I was on the receiving end of this… Continue reading Preying & Playing on Insecurities: The Problem with Wellness Rhetoric
As we round out this #PAILAwareness month on our last week of October, I want to highlight another Black Angel Mom out here doing AMAZING things! Her debut book is about to be released soon and she has graciously agreed to share a snippet with you. Her book titled, From Three Heartbeats to One: A… Continue reading #BAMsCreate2019: BAM Keisha
Got a new #BAMGuestBloggerExperience entry for y'all! BAM Cassandra (who has also submitted some of her work for #BAMsCreate2019 (check out her poetry here), has also written something extra for you all to get to know her, and her story better. In this entry, she tackles her journey of figuring out who she is post-loss… Continue reading Who Am I Now..?
Let me tell y'all something; BAM's are out here doing AMAZING THINGS!!! Losing a child is a horrible experience that often is unparalleled in terms of the amount of pain it causes. In the face of that pain, we are out here creating, continuing to live, working, supporting, processing, and healing. For this 4th week… Continue reading #BAMsCreate2019: BAM Sasha
Often times we go through life just living it as we will live forever. We don’t think about the possibility of death because we are so comfortable with life. We take trips, we create memories, we take pictures and we do all of the things that we want to do simply because we can. But… Continue reading From Pain to Purpose
No one seems to understand. No one cares about my experience. No one, not even my partner or family, feels the depth of this pain. The world just keeps on spinning. Everyone just keeps on living… yet I’m stuck feeling like I’m screaming in the dark and no one can hear me. Does this sound… Continue reading Solo Dolo: Feeling Alone in Grief
Photo by: @Khaparazzi I’ve got a story for y’all… So a few weekends back, my spouse, myself, and our son are by our pool grilling. It’s Memorial Day weekend so lots of folx are out enjoying the weather and water. I’m minding my business, getting my grill-master on and feeling pretty damn proud of myself… Continue reading Decision Point: I got time TODAY!
Two years ago, today, I was admitted to the hospital knowing it would be the first time I met my daughters, and the last time I would see them. Two years ago, today, I experienced the worst heartbreak of my life and honestly, my heart is still on the mend from that experience. I wish… Continue reading Two Years Ago, Today…
Whhhheeeewwwwwww!!! *wipes forehead* We made it! We made it through Mother’s Day! A day we may have dreaded, may have prepared for, or may have had some really unexpected things come up for us; but we made it! Pat yourself on the back because you deserve it! So…. anybody else have an emotional hangover after… Continue reading Mother’s Day Hangovers: Yup, They’re a Thing…