black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Trying to figure this all out

Angel-Versary

This time last year (6/6/17), I was conducting an audit for work, rubbing my slightly protruding belly, and excited about whether we’d be able to see the sex of our babies at our ultrasound & testing appointment at the Antenatal Testing Unit later that afternoon. I also was slightly concerned because of some leaking I… Continue reading Angel-Versary

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Trying to figure this all out

Who Are You Now…?

There are times when you notice things about yourself that seem a bit foreign.  They’re things that you don’t recall doing or thinking… ways of being that seem unlike the you, you remember. Maybe you’re more harsh than you were before. Maybe you’re more sentimental. Maybe you’re more standoffish and aloof… maybe you can’t really… Continue reading Who Are You Now…?

black angel moms, Trauma of it all, Trying to figure this all out, TTC (trying to conceive)

On Creating Families

Let's face it, the road to parenthood isn't always paved in gold and lined with roses. If you've found my blog you're either a person who has been trying to conceive & lost a baby, has children and lost a child somewhere along the way or are supporting someone in either of the situations mentioned… Continue reading On Creating Families

7 Gems - You're Welcome, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

Not So Helpful…

Let's have a quick chat over a hot drink, shall we..? People say all kinds of things and most are not meant to be harmful. I've been having and seeing some conversations play out recently that made me think, it's about that time for another installment of "the things you shouldn't say to angel parents". … Continue reading Not So Helpful…

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, Laugh through the pain

Why You Should See a Therapist

So I know some people think therapy is BS and question why you should pay someone to complain about your problems when you can do that for free with your friends. Welp, I’m here to tell you that THE RIGHT therapist can be a godsend and can really help to get you all the way… Continue reading Why You Should See a Therapist

grief & loss, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

Facing Fears

Sometimes it's really hard to be vulnerable. It's difficult to share your deepest darkest fears with someone else and allow them to see the cracks in the facade you maintain everyday.  We all wear masks to an extent. We put our face on to go and deal with the world, handle our business and keep… Continue reading Facing Fears

7 Gems - You're Welcome, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

The Body Remembers: Clearing What We Hold

I helped to co-facilitate an amazing event this weekend. It’s a yearly get together for centering, validating and healing which has proven to be one of the things I look forward to most despite my grumbling about being outside in cold weather. So many gems were freely given and received during the day-long event but… Continue reading The Body Remembers: Clearing What We Hold

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Where Did You Go? Missing Me

I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me

black angel moms, grief & loss, Poetry, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Sitting in Solidarity…

Sitting in solidarity… In solidarity with people who are crying People who are not joyous at a time when everyone tells you that you should be In solidarity with those who have lost loved ones Those who are alone and empty Those who cannot give thanks in this moment Those who are angry at this… Continue reading Sitting in Solidarity…

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss, Laugh through the pain

7 Things I Oddly Miss…

There are a lot of things I miss about being pregnant but there are a select few that really stick out and feel ever-present as this year comes to a close. The consistent intense feeling of grief fades a bit over time but the shorter, intermittent bursts of sadness are hella powerful even 6 months… Continue reading 7 Things I Oddly Miss…