black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Trying to figure this all out, TTC (trying to conceive)

Forced Choices

Have you ever played Would You Rather? It’s this silly game that prompts you to answer the craziest questions making a choice between two unfavorable responses. Both choices are crappy and usually require you to pick which is less gross, less painful or less devastating. Either way, a sacrifice has to be made and you… Continue reading Forced Choices

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Trying to figure this all out

Who Are You Now…?

There are times when you notice things about yourself that seem a bit foreign.  They’re things that you don’t recall doing or thinking… ways of being that seem unlike the you, you remember. Maybe you’re more harsh than you were before. Maybe you’re more sentimental. Maybe you’re more standoffish and aloof… maybe you can’t really… Continue reading Who Are You Now…?

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trying to figure this all out

Walking Forward, Backwards…

Have you ever wondered just what in the hell was happening in your life? Like seriously, what in the world is going on with this thing?! Sometimes, it seems like things are going just as you’d like them too. Other times, it seems like somebody is playing a cruel joke on you and you’re left… Continue reading Walking Forward, Backwards…

grief & loss, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

Facing Fears

Sometimes it's really hard to be vulnerable. It's difficult to share your deepest darkest fears with someone else and allow them to see the cracks in the facade you maintain everyday.  We all wear masks to an extent. We put our face on to go and deal with the world, handle our business and keep… Continue reading Facing Fears

7 Gems - You're Welcome, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

The Body Remembers: Clearing What We Hold

I helped to co-facilitate an amazing event this weekend. It’s a yearly get together for centering, validating and healing which has proven to be one of the things I look forward to most despite my grumbling about being outside in cold weather. So many gems were freely given and received during the day-long event but… Continue reading The Body Remembers: Clearing What We Hold

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss

APR’s (Angel Parent Resolutions)

It’s that time of year where folx decide to make resolutions for the coming year.  The time when people proclaim who they’ll continue speaking to, who’s getting cut off, what kind of changes to the diet their making and fitness goals to work out more.  Some people focus on setting better boundaries for themselves while… Continue reading APR’s (Angel Parent Resolutions)

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Where Did You Go? Missing Me

I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me

black angel moms, grief & loss, Poetry, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Sitting in Solidarity…

Sitting in solidarity… In solidarity with people who are crying People who are not joyous at a time when everyone tells you that you should be In solidarity with those who have lost loved ones Those who are alone and empty Those who cannot give thanks in this moment Those who are angry at this… Continue reading Sitting in Solidarity…

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all

When Is It Time?

Weeks…. Months… years… decades even… Time has passed since your loss. Maybe you’re still a wreck. Maybe the days have gotten a little easier as they drag on. Maybe you’re somewhere in the middle. Maybe you can look at the old ultrasound photos… the “mom-to-be” cards… the pictures after they were born and maybe, maybe… Continue reading When Is It Time?