Often times we go through life just living it as we will live forever. We donโt think about the possibility of death because we are so comfortable with life. We take trips, we create memories, we take pictures and we do all of the things that we want to do simply because we can. But… Continue reading From Pain to Purpose
No one seems to understand. No one cares about my experience.ย No one, not even my partner or family, feels the depth of this pain.ย The world just keeps on spinning. Everyone just keeps on livingโฆ yet Iโm stuck feeling like Iโm screaming in the dark and no one can hear me. Does this sound… Continue reading Solo Dolo: Feeling Alone in Grief
Photo by: @Khaparazzi Iโve got a story for yโallโฆ So a few weekends back, my spouse, myself, and our son are by our pool grilling. ย Itโs Memorial Day weekend so lots of folx are out enjoying the weather and water. Iโm minding my business, getting my grill-master on and feeling pretty damn proud of myself… Continue reading Decision Point: I got time TODAY!
Two years ago, today, I was admitted to the hospital knowing it would be the first time I met my daughters, and the last time I would see them. Two years ago, today, I experienced the worst heartbreak of my life and honestly, my heart is still on the mend from that experience. I wish… Continue reading Two Years Ago, Today…
Whhhheeeewwwwwww!!! *wipes forehead* We made it! We made it through Motherโs Day! ย A day we may have dreaded, may have prepared for, or may have had some really unexpected things come up for us; but we made it! Pat yourself on the back because you deserve it! Soโฆ. anybody else have an emotional hangover after… Continue reading Motherโs Day Hangovers: Yup, Theyโre a Thingโฆ
When I was younger, I had all kinds of ideas about what kind of mother I wanted to, and was going to be. ย Largely, this was modeled after my own motherโs way of mothering me, but it was also a commitment I had to showing up for little life (or lives) I created in all… Continue reading This is What (Bereaved) Motherhood Looks Like
Photo by: @CRF.pics (IG) How much time is โenough timeโ for a person to be โoverโ their loss? How many of you have been asked if youโre STILL having a hard time since your loss? Iโm grateful that question doesnโt usually come in my direction anymore (probably because Iโm a little feisty. *shrugs* blame it… Continue reading Lemme Checkโฆ Yup! Still Hard
๐ ข๐ ข JOY!!! And pain Are like Sunshine!!! And rain JOY!!! And pain Are like Sunshine and rain ๐ ข๐ ข If you didnโt start singing along w/ the Maze featuring Frankie Beverly version OR the Rob Base version, we canโt be friends! *Abrupt change of energy startingโฆ now* I recently had the experience of shopping for my… Continue reading The Intersection of Joy X Pain
Have you ever noticed how OBSESSED people are with babies? I mean really, think about it for a secโฆ People will speak to a baby before they speak to that kidโs parent. They will ask you when youโre going to have children if youโre partnered and why you havenโt โsettled down to have some kids… Continue reading Everybody Wants to Talk About the Babyโฆ Until They Donโt
Photo by @Artsy_Solomon_Films Can we all do each other a favor? Can we all take a break from trying to maintain this super-person status where we donโt feel things deeply, donโt get overwhelmed, donโt struggle, donโt feel like everything is just too damn much? Can we have a moment of honesty and transparency where we… Continue reading #NormalizeBreakdowns
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