I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me
I saw you yesterday! I thought I was mistaken so I stared a little harder but it was you. Boldly displayed, shining for the whole world to see. It brightened my day and I realized Just how long it’s been since I’ve seen...you. How long has it been? A few weeks? A few months, maybe?… Continue reading Smile
Weeks…. Months… years… decades even… Time has passed since your loss. Maybe you’re still a wreck. Maybe the days have gotten a little easier as they drag on. Maybe you’re somewhere in the middle. Maybe you can look at the old ultrasound photos… the “mom-to-be” cards… the pictures after they were born and maybe, maybe… Continue reading When Is It Time?
When 2017 rolled around, I was focused. I planned to get this dissertation mostly completed, and spend my year gestating my future child. I had come off of surgery at the end of 2016 to remove two sneaky fibroids and a failed IUI (Intra-Uterine Insemination) cycle at the end of the year. I was disappointed… Continue reading LOL @ Your Plans…
You know that feeling when something’s going on with you and you feel like you then see evidence of it everywhere? Like when you’re going through a breakup but everywhere you turn, you seem to see couples cuddled up, cuffing season is in full swing and everybody-and-their-mother is getting engaged? Yeah, you know what I’m… Continue reading The Value of Trigger Warnings
*Language Warning so if you're offended by curses, pick another post ;-)* This post is going to be short and sweet because the truth is always more concise. I heard about a study that found people who lie use more words overall than people who tell the truth. Makes sense, right? The truth doesn’t need… Continue reading There is NO Safe Zone!
So a holiday is coming up. I won’t go into the sordid history of the “relationship” between indigenous people and pilgrims but the general message we’re supposed to get out of this holiday is to be grateful for the blessings you have received and to break bread with family and friends alike. Sometimes, it’s hard… Continue reading 7 Ways to Practice Gratitude
On March 13, 2017 I found out that I was pregnant. Within a week or so, I found out we were having twins. Around April 15th, we were able to see our little gummy bears moving around in utero looking like Yin and Yang. When we went to our appointment in May, we saw our… Continue reading 11/17/17
I don’t know about y’all but I usually love the holidays. I love the great food, the family time, and the general feeling of happiness that seems to be in the air. This holiday season is a bit different though. We expected to have our infant daughters with us during Thanksgiving dinner and for Christmas.… Continue reading Angel Parent Guide to the Holidays
Have you ever carved a pumpkin? I haven't. Today (10/22/17) was the first time that I can remember doing it. Maybe I did when I was a kid a long time ago but I was a little black Girl in Bklyn so pumpkin carving was probably the last thing on my mind. Anyway, today I… Continue reading How My Pumpkin Became My Baby