It’s that time of year where folx decide to make resolutions for the coming year. The time when people proclaim who they’ll continue speaking to, who’s getting cut off, what kind of changes to the diet their making and fitness goals to work out more. Some people focus on setting better boundaries for themselves while… Continue reading APR’s (Angel Parent Resolutions)
I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me
Sitting in solidarity… In solidarity with people who are crying People who are not joyous at a time when everyone tells you that you should be In solidarity with those who have lost loved ones Those who are alone and empty Those who cannot give thanks in this moment Those who are angry at this… Continue reading Sitting in Solidarity…
I saw you yesterday! I thought I was mistaken so I stared a little harder but it was you. Boldly displayed, shining for the whole world to see. It brightened my day and I realized Just how long it’s been since I’ve seen...you. How long has it been? A few weeks? A few months, maybe?… Continue reading Smile
Weeks…. Months… years… decades even… Time has passed since your loss. Maybe you’re still a wreck. Maybe the days have gotten a little easier as they drag on. Maybe you’re somewhere in the middle. Maybe you can look at the old ultrasound photos… the “mom-to-be” cards… the pictures after they were born and maybe, maybe… Continue reading When Is It Time?
There are a lot of things I miss about being pregnant but there are a select few that really stick out and feel ever-present as this year comes to a close. The consistent intense feeling of grief fades a bit over time but the shorter, intermittent bursts of sadness are hella powerful even 6 months… Continue reading 7 Things I Oddly Miss…
When 2017 rolled around, I was focused. I planned to get this dissertation mostly completed, and spend my year gestating my future child. I had come off of surgery at the end of 2016 to remove two sneaky fibroids and a failed IUI (Intra-Uterine Insemination) cycle at the end of the year. I was disappointed… Continue reading LOL @ Your Plans…
One would think I'd have a wealth of things to write about. Sometimes, that's just not true. This time of year has been challenging for me and some days, I'm barely getting by y'all. So since I can't seem to fully form blog entries for today, I'm going to post some pics that capture some… Continue reading Writer’s Block…
Loss is hard. It’s one of the hardest things (if not the hardest) that you’ll ever experience in your life. Different losses hurt differently and different people react differently to loss. I want to say there’s no wrong way to react but… I’d kind of be lying so I’m not going to do that y’all.… Continue reading 7 Things non-bae Does that BAE Never Would
You know that feeling when something’s going on with you and you feel like you then see evidence of it everywhere? Like when you’re going through a breakup but everywhere you turn, you seem to see couples cuddled up, cuffing season is in full swing and everybody-and-their-mother is getting engaged? Yeah, you know what I’m… Continue reading The Value of Trigger Warnings
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