black angel moms, grief & loss, Trying to figure this all out

Walking Forward, Backwards…

Have you ever wondered just what in the hell was happening in your life? Like seriously, what in the world is going on with this thing?! Sometimes, it seems like things are going just as you’d like them too. Other times, it seems like somebody is playing a cruel joke on you and you’re left… Continue reading Walking Forward, Backwards…

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, Laugh through the pain

Why You Should See a Therapist

So I know some people think therapy is BS and question why you should pay someone to complain about your problems when you can do that for free with your friends. Welp, I’m here to tell you that THE RIGHT therapist can be a godsend and can really help to get you all the way… Continue reading Why You Should See a Therapist

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, Trauma of it all, TTC (trying to conceive)

Counting

Have you ever considered how much we count?  We’re either paying attention to how much time we have before needing to get to work or counting down to a much needed vacation or counting the hours until the work day is over or counting the time you have until some deadline. Our lives are inundated… Continue reading Counting

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss

APR’s (Angel Parent Resolutions)

It’s that time of year where folx decide to make resolutions for the coming year.  The time when people proclaim who they’ll continue speaking to, who’s getting cut off, what kind of changes to the diet their making and fitness goals to work out more.  Some people focus on setting better boundaries for themselves while… Continue reading APR’s (Angel Parent Resolutions)

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Where Did You Go? Missing Me

I don’t know about y’all but sometimes, I just feel missing. Absent from a space. Like I’m either not really there or I don’t want to be there, or like who I thought I was, just simply doesn’t exist anymore. Occasionally I get a glimpse of me but it’s never quite clear. I’m never around… Continue reading Where Did You Go? Missing Me

black angel moms, grief & loss, Poetry, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

Sitting in Solidarity…

Sitting in solidarity… In solidarity with people who are crying People who are not joyous at a time when everyone tells you that you should be In solidarity with those who have lost loved ones Those who are alone and empty Those who cannot give thanks in this moment Those who are angry at this… Continue reading Sitting in Solidarity…

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all

When Is It Time?

Weeks…. Months… years… decades even… Time has passed since your loss. Maybe you’re still a wreck. Maybe the days have gotten a little easier as they drag on. Maybe you’re somewhere in the middle. Maybe you can look at the old ultrasound photos… the “mom-to-be” cards… the pictures after they were born and maybe, maybe… Continue reading When Is It Time?

7 Gems - You're Welcome, black angel moms, grief & loss, Laugh through the pain

7 Things I Oddly Miss…

There are a lot of things I miss about being pregnant but there are a select few that really stick out and feel ever-present as this year comes to a close. The consistent intense feeling of grief fades a bit over time but the shorter, intermittent bursts of sadness are hella powerful even 6 months… Continue reading 7 Things I Oddly Miss…

black angel moms, grief & loss, Trauma of it all, Uncategorized

LOL @ Your Plans…

When 2017 rolled around, I was focused. I planned to get this dissertation mostly completed, and spend my year gestating my future child. I had come off of surgery at the end of 2016 to remove two sneaky fibroids and a failed IUI (Intra-Uterine Insemination) cycle at the end of the year.  I was disappointed… Continue reading LOL @ Your Plans…